I am so many posts behind, so I must make good use of this opportunity to recall much about my holidays.

Begining from 7th of March, a Wednesday..


07th March:

After school, Xuanjie, Desmond, Irfan, Dennison, Susan, Amanda, Anne, and I, plus a few others intend to look for Mrs Tan and ask her about the class tee issue. We stepped away from the class and discussed what we want to do since Mrs Tan is on course. Not realising that Jessie was standing behind us, we started talking about what exactly happened. It took a while for all of us to see that she was there, so we moved to the stairs at the far end. Moments later, Shayne came to us with another guy. Was it John? Initially, Shayne talked to us with a nice tone, but things started to turn harsh when we enquired about the change of design for our class tee.

Things went pretty unpleasant when we returned to class. Xuanjie rung Mrs Tan up. Quarrels and conflicts, people from other classes also came to know about this. Whatever, and some even wanted to carry on with the cheer, despite of their ugly mood. I don't bother, I just left.

I can't remember what happened next. Did I have rehearsal?


08th March:
Had free periods, but a bunch of us, which includes Desmond, Xuanjie, Wilson, Timothy, Amanda, Anne and I, probably a few more just sat around. I don't give a hoot. I still feel apologetic to Siska and Shafiqah now though. Upon hearing a voice that irks me so much, I decided to shut my ears, not literally. I left the class, not just to tame my temper, but also, Dennison told me to listen if the cheer can be heard from the outside. Seriously, it can't be heard, like mentioned.

During Mrs Tan's period, she took it to talk to us and enquired what happened yesterday. Debated and stuff.

Desmond, Susan and guys persuaded me to put on our class tee tomorrow. Anyway, I was just using the class design as an excuse to brew trouble, somehow.


09th March:
I came to school and stuff. Susan, Amanda and I just stripped outside the ladies as the washroom was so packed even the door can't be open ajar. The class tee is a joke, the whole tee itself! Even the printing is absurd.

I adore classes with jerseys! Gosh. I love 4\2A's performance.

I met Huibin after lunch outside 7-11, and I spent quite some time in there, haha. We board some bus which was flooded with PRCS students, namely sec2s.

Both of us arrived earlier than the arranged reporting time. Mr Neo instructed us to direct the ambulance to the assigned parking lot. Sweemin came along and there were many teachers and students coming in in cars and cabs. I saw Eugene C. came in a cab so I passed his class Sexyback disc to him. Half an hour later, the Milo truck arrived. Fifteen minutes later, the mineral water lorry came. Another fifteen minutes later, finally, the ambulance came! All along, we were waiting for the ambulance, but it arrived an hour later! Foof.

Subsequently, all of us, NCC girls have nothing to do. We tried to walk around but no one instruct us about anything. We went to the starting\finishing line and someone told us to station there so when those runners just flop onto the ground, we have to pick them up to the side. It was so scorching and Huibin wanted to walk to Naeem's spot, so we went on with it. Along the way, we saw Roxanne sprinting for the last 300m. We were like "Go, Roxanne!", then a sip of cola. We did that continuously and we find it super hilarious, pretty ridiculous too. Destinated ourselves at the 300m but walked down another 100m. I screamed at everyone, asking them to go faster, don't halt, 300m left. Hahaha. Very strenuous of my throat, but it was fun.

Et cetera, prize-giving, dismissal. Mr Neo held us back for a moment then released us. Then met up with Guoxin and Yanxiang. We strolled and strolled, till we came upon the bustop very near Tampines train station. Took the bus back and they walked me till my block's lift lobby.


Oh no, seems like I have to carry on the next time..

10th March: AKE training\selection round, NCC overnight camp.
11th March: NCC overnight camp.
12th March: [NCC Mt. Ophir, NPCC 3 days 2 nights camp.]
13th March: English extra lesson.
14th March: Kayaking 1 star training!
15th March: Kayaking 1 star training!

As usual, I walked to school with Clara. Then Zul was behind so I halted him to head for class and placed our CCA stuff there. Brilliantly, some guys called it a scandal. Let me define scandal: an event in which someone, especially someone important, behaves in a bad way that shocks people, quoted from Longman Online dictionary.

After morning assembly, I was stopped by Cheryl and she told me that Mr Shafie wants to see me. Ridiculous enough, I thought it was because of my socks. But sadly, Cheryl told me it was my hair, red. I was stunned, I mean, why catch me now? Not like I dyed over the Chinese New Year holidays. I went to see him and he asked me to clip up my hair, then he told Ms Chua. She didn't send me home. But I was required to colour it black by tomorrow! Black!!!

I used time, especially when I am in the sun, to admire my hair one last time. Hysterical.

In the afternoon, I was still moaning.

After lunch break, Alex got uptight because Dennison was talking to Amanda. Cool. And not sure why, Irfan Hakim carried John on his shoulders. John can seriously topple over the railing, but he gripped it and managed to land properly, not on the ground floor. Haha. So dangerous, okay.

Rushed to change into our uniform. Alfred smells heavenly, after spraying some fizz on him. Forever eating regardless on the ground he stands. Had our Speech Day Rehearsal. Although I personally prefer Mr Razak to be the pillar of the parade, but I reluctantly reckon that Mr Azhar had everything nicely organised. The rehearsals and review clashes with so many of our NCC activities, namely camps. Such a pity. I rather go without overnight camps. Never took a fancy on them, except for day camps.


Time has past,
you broke into pieces.
Confused, I am.
Aches, I feel.
Sitting on the fence,
to probe you,
or let things by?

You stared with an emptiness,
and I swept my sight away.
Our shoulders brushed briefly,
like leaves whispering softly.
A mile apart, but your smell stays.
Yearning a glance of you,
but I never saw your shadow again.

Wednesday:
Went to school with Zul and Amanda. Then what happened?


Thursday:
Finally, and finally, our first visit to the Physics Lab so far this year.

Never mind, I totally gotten rid of events that happened. I have been diagnosed with senile dementia at such an age.

Longed planned to catch a movie with Alfred, Shayne and people, but Mrs Tan placed AMath make-up lesson today! How infuriating. The movie time slots don't compromise our hectic schedule. Pushed it to Monday, but we have English remedial. Out of all days and weeks!

Junming, Dennison, Alex and Shayne skipped half of the make-up lesson. By right, they are liable for detention or caning? I don't know.

What has gotten into you guys?

After school, I sent Anne up to AVA room for the Social Studies common test then went down to Ain and Nabilah. Grabbed a bite and headed for the beach. Took some bollywood pictures, haha! I spotted this disgusting, horrifying, jellified object on the sand. We were curious but I was terrified. I hid behind Nabilah and squeezed her arm real hard. Ain was the brave one who went up to it and threw a stick on that object. Okay, it was a jellyfish, we assumed. Still not satisfied, we asked her to poke it with the stick. And knew what, we screamed luh. Seriously very awful. Nabilah said the greenish or blueish brain can be seen. Eeeeee!


Friday:
After morning assembly, it was thermometer checking time. I heard that Alfred showed Mrs Tan a white eraser and she took that thing as a thermometer for real. Hahaha.

PE, ran? Yeah. I thought I cheated, then I think I did not.

John is kind(:

Blogging makes you clever in a way that it helps to expand your memory span. I suppose.

Friday:
School, totally spoilt my day. Well, maybe not, till Amanda told me every single detail of what happened during the game. Only warm-ups can make me feel happy when Syafiqah, John and Shayne are around me. Unexpected things never fail to happen, but of course! Only if I treat Xuanjie to food, then will I get to fish out something from him. Another mercenary fellow.

Before leaving home for Marina, I thought I heard my father and aunty Kim quarrelled. He came out of the room shouting that we won't be going. I somehow took his words for real because it was already dinner time and we were still stuck at home!

I thought I have gotten rid of those fearful memories when my parents used to quarrel. But that was proven wrong on this very day when I suspected my dad and aunt were bickering. I realised those past memories still haunt me. Never would I want to witness any adults quarrelling any longer!

I could sense that something was wrong between them, but I don't bother. I just find them terribly childish although it is dumb. Dined at some cheap cheap place, the food court or whatever you name it. Sat outside where you have a view of Esplanade and more buildings. At 2000, fireworks were displayed. Every typical Singaporean were so fascinated with the display. Like hello? Never seen fireworks display in your life before uh? Some even began snapping pictures of it, hahaha! The sounds of the fireworks burst my ears. No doubt it is nice, but just for the first time luh.

Started shopping only at around 2230. Insufficient time for me! I went in to every single desirable shop but nothing seems to catch my eyes. Bumped into my cousin, lol. I'm only left with those undesirable shops. Those ah lian shops. Oh man..


Saturday:
Guess what I wore to my uncle's house for reunion dinner??? School's PE tee! Hahaha! Plus a jacket on, just to cover the name. And out of all people, I saw Brandon. Lol.

Steamboat! Something I dread pretty much. Boredom. But I had Guoxin to accompany me, lol. Those adults thought they could handle steamboat and hotplate well, but in fact, they can't! It was frustrating and I was fuming mad. And opps, I reprimanded them.

After ten, my older cousins and younger ones suggested to go down to the playground. Haha. At first, we played volleyball, then some catching game with the little ones. The twins can sure run.

My uncle offered to drive us home. He and my dad naively think that we can all squeeze in when hello, there are like so many fat asses. Then I scolded them again. So obstinate. My father told me to mind my manners, lol!

Somewhere after midnight, I broke the bottle that Salihah gave me on Val's Day. I'm so sorry, gorgeous! With much remorse. Blame it on my carelessness and laziness. Sorry sorry!


Sunday:
Crawled up early and prepared to go visting. Well, left home much later after four. Before that, I got my books from Timothy. Good for him, celebrating at home. Don't have to fred about his outfits.

Dumb tradition. How boring. The only fun part was when we went out to where the 3 black cars were parked and began cam-whoring.

Can't stand it when someone purchase items or clothings that is an exact replica of what you owned first! And that will be her sense of fashion?

All of the photos are hilarious luh. Haha. Mada good use of the cars, roads, and mango trees. The pictures turned out pretty! I love.

We initially wanted to dine outside, but those fickle adults changed their minds. There, we ate at home with deliveries. My cousins played mahjiong and I just stood by and witness. I will sustain myself from picking up that 'interest'.

Those people, can't stop gambling. Disrupt my beauty sleep. But something funny happened. My cousins played with cards on mahjiong table with mahjiong paper on. I took some pencils and a marker and began doodling on it. One of my little cousin drew a cheese on Deane's side and messed up his flow. Cheese cursed him. And another of my cousin took the marker and doodled a huge cheese facing Deane. It cannot be erased so he drew a mouse to have the cheese eaten up. The cycle went on. A cat to eat the mouse, a dog to chase the cat, a dog poacher to nap the dog, a dinosaur to gobble the dog, lastly, ice age. Everything died! Hahaha.


Sunday:
Went to my mom's place. Ate, then slept. Heard ambulances and police cars. Ate again. My uncle drove us back. He almost hit the motorcycle in front on purpose just because that fellow was communicating with another cyclist. My uncle was a neighbourhood policeman in the past. Lol, and he did that? He even said that he has four wheels but they only have two, nothing to worry about.

Writing period today was short. But this year's topics are much more interesting. Today's topic was My top 3 dream jobs. Of course, I wrote psychologist, psychoanalyst and psychiatrist! But we didn't have time to write much.

EMath was boring.

PE was as usual, just that we were allowed to play our own games. At first, Siska, Syafiqah, Amanda and I wanted to join John's group for Captain's Ball, but I changed to soccer instead. There were only ten girls, including me who played soccer. Pretty fun.

Then..stuff that I don't want to mention!


I'm sorry. If I had known that you knew, I would not have said those things to you. I felt the coldness from you. Is it due to that sentence I carry with me? Don't take it so hard, will you? I'm sorry.


Do you still remember what you promised me last year that can only be fulfilled this year? That day isn't here yet, but will it happen? Afterall, that is still a promise!

Wednesday:
Met up with Zul and Amanda somewhere at my block. Supposed to wait for Jonathan and people, but they were so long. Shayne and guys already left them, but I saw them behind when Zul, Amanda and I were strolling to school. The bag of chocolates I brought to school were heavy!

Arrived in school, seeing everyone still lingering around in the canteen. Stella Tan had to chase us up. I was the first few to get into the hall with Amanda. Felt weird when it was empty.

The session was an exact replica of our course last year. Kind of like a waste of time.

During lunch break, I was absolutely busy and got higgledy-piggledy! Rushing to give out everything, like a Santa! Had my elves, hahaha. But thanks anyway.

Nabilah gave me a rose and the petals can't stop falling out. Shayne, could actually told me to count, "Love you, love you not". Lol? Zul placed the rose in his mouth and pretended he was dancing Tango. Shayne tried to shake my rose! Evil people!

For the whole night, I was so busy handling with people's messages. People like Dennis, initially, then Eugene Chua, Timothy, Alfred, Shaun and Guoxin. My cellphone battery went flat and one even asked me a dumb question that sent me speechless. I was also surprised that Alfred could relate Val's Day to Halloween. He would prefer camping outside the school gate for three days than spending Chinese New Year. Weird.

I would hereby like to thank those who wished me a Happy Valentine's Day or gave me something. I appreciate it! Someone, didn't fulfil his promise though.


Thursday:
First ever period was Homeroom period. Mrs Tan attempted to hold a vote for the class motto. I seriously think that "Prolonged idleness paralyses initiative" was the best, than as compared to "Achievement starts from within". But my choice lack of a few votes, a pity. Siska, horny banana, "Prolonged idleness paralyses initiative" means if one is too laxed, it will be difficult to get him to be proactive in time to come.

Fire drill exercise came in just in time! Haha. It was during Physics, nearing AMath when it happened.

When it was Ms Tan's lesson, she asked Wilson what was his answer to question F, and almost instantly, the PA system thing just sounded, *toot*. As if it was trying to censor the F.

Alex, unlike Xuanjie, is a mush better soul! Zul placed a gummy on Xuanjie's chair. He was on the verge of sitting on it, but too bad, he saw. I guess we were too obvious that Zul played a trick on him. If 2\6 sees something flying outside the window, 97% of it are threwn by Zul, Xuanjie or Wilson. Haha! They kept munching on food, especially sweets and gummies! Sneaky people. Well, I ate too. Lol.

I can't fathom why did Zul steamed when I said he should find older women. But he twisted my words! He said I told him he should sleep with older women. Did I? Hahaha! I'm too absent-minded.

Some mishaps happened after school. A tremendous sound was sent that echoed. Don't be unhappy about that luh, it was an accident. Lunched in the school canteen with Amanda. Irfan Hakim, Xuanjie, Sean, and Jonathan were there too. Fun fun luh, haha. Laughed a lot. Especially when I asked them why they don't want to bang that girl instead of Stinkess, Irfan Hakim was coincidentally drinking water and he immediately spat at Xuanjie! Very comical! I like that scene! Hahaha, I can't stop laughing, so did they. Things began to get horny. About the bang bang thing. Eee, why her luh?! 3\6 guys are blind. Including the fact; one of them that was chosen is me. Blind uh. 1\6'05 guys are also blind!

Timothy, being a jerk(opps! ), asked Irfan Hakim to kiss me. Hello? Sean and Irfan Hakim had a men's talk that I seriously don't have a clue about what is it. Saying wanting to do something. Do what? As if I'm smart enough to guess what is it.

Went to Whitesands. Saw Deane! Haha. Waved at him but he was like so so blur.

Brilliant! It has been ages since I got into blogger within such a short time. Cool..


Monday:
Something ridiculous here, Junming, Joyce, Timothy, Shayne, Alfred, Alex and Jessie got a haircut over the weekends. It seems like everyone in class are changing their hairstyles or getting their hair cut, like John, Xuanjie, Irfan Hakim and et cetera. Awesome! Lol. To me, at least. Kind of made me laughed the whole morning.

But something, or rather someone, made me and Amanda seriously sulk and fuming mad the whole afternoon!

I did real badly for my English- People 2 Quiz and essay! Such a disappointment. But, I got a little higher than Alfred. Yay! Okay, still, that doesn't convince me that my command of English language or usage of vocabulory is better than Alfred. Out of the many questions in the quiz, our whole class got the meaning of 'sadist' right.

During Chinese lesson, when Jojo entered our class, the guys started to sing "Ke Ren Lai", which is like dumb, but cute! Alfred sang the loudest, you see. Anne should have been there, she will jump for craze.

I can't recall it was English or Literature lesson, but anyway, it was Ms Tan's period. She actually went down and fetch her windbreaker for Irfan Hakim. Pretty unbelievable though. Irfan Hakim tried to fit in to many characters, even a flasher with the windbreaker on. Plus the addition of sound effects, it was even more comical.

There was this worksheet something like People 2\3 or whatever when we have to find a more profound word to replace a simple word. Xuanjie had to go up to the board and write down the correct answers. Tonnes of spelling error, and there was one for 'lively', he wrote 'vibrate' instead of 'vibrant' delibrately. Horny horny.

Oh oh, I was really, very, super, uber surprised I am not down for AMath remedial. I flopped my test! So did Timothy, but we weren't chosen. Attending remedials regardless of whichever subjects is just a matter of time for me.


Tuesday:
Literature test! My mind is very shallow! I hate her! Okay, out of the blue.

But I do, I DO! I'm exploding, I'm flaring, I'm raging with anger, fuming mad! For a little girl like her, I am flabbergasted by her smell, disgusted by her smile, deafen by her voice. I can tolerate her no more. Annoying pest. Stew her and throw her in an incinerator. Hahaha! I am evil, but she is worse! She stinks; her character and..herself luh. Stinko! Stinks. Stinks. Eeew..

Okay, enough of her. Mentioning of her just turns me off. She simply doesn't have respect for others.

Terima kasih, kekasih. For your correction tape.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Whatever happened last year was like *snap*, erased. But never mind, I will be Miss Santa Claus on Val's Day. Oh, and it is Valda's birthday as well. To think I can remember. Hahaha..

Awww..Laily sistersan, anticipate your happy tomorrow. Shed a tear if you need to, he will lend you his shoulders.

I shall elaborate a little on yesterday's string of events since boredom is killing me currently.


After writing period, I felt my chair vibrating. I was wondering who the hell messaged me at that time. Lol, it was Dennis. He saw the note I left on his book. Haha.

During recess, when Shayne smack a slice of cake on John's face, I was expecting a commotion, but nothing happened! Such a letdown. Caution, the next 3\6's birthday boy. Okay, supposingly Xuanjie, since his birthday happens to be today. The next guy shall be Irfan Hakim, 7 May, months down the road, still. A pity.

This is really a shame, but I flunk all my class tests so far! Argh, how could I?! A huge disappointment !

Amanda, Anne and I headed for central right after lessons. Along the corridor, Jonathan seemed agitated with Shayne and pushed him hard. Timothy patted Jonathan's back to cool him down. That incident seriously shocked me somehow. But they went to central together still, a relief.

Saw Junming, Dennison and Alex at a coffeshop. On the route back to school, Jonathan asked where am I, I saw them behind, but he couldn't see me. That is the result of not wearing glasses.

I managed to complete both Physics and Chemistry paper within an hour. Much beyond my expectation though. It seems pretty easy, but hopefully it won't turn out for the worst.

Zameerul and Siska walked me home, haha. I'm like out of place. Lol. But thanks anyway, my horny banana!

Took a cab with my dad, Aunty Kim and my brother to Marina Square, initially. But there was a serious jam and my ailment came up to me. I felt nauseous and as I was sitting in the front seat, the scorching sun was directly facing me. Feeling pretty bad. After an hour, we were still stuck at Geylang\ Paya Lebar\ Eunos. I made my dad to get the driver to halt at the nearest train station, and he did. I'm such a weakling. A 20bucks trip to Eunos for an hour. What a joke. Lol.

Dined at Marina Square. Shopped around but only managed to get a shirt for my brother. Can't stand my dad. So fickle till I can't get my stuff. Grrr..


3\6 guys! All those jokers make my day! Lol. Always coming out with wacky jokes and comments that will send me tumbling down the earth. Fun fun!


Everyday, as dusk falls on me, I fear the night.
A sense of emptiness awaits for my arrival.
My mind starts to wonder, lingering into the past.
Far stretched to 17 September 2005.
Those memories are etched in my heart.
Those memories were enriched with our love, protected by our minds.
Till now, they are still revolving around me.
I refrain myself from having my thoughts running wild.
How naive of us, to have the same mature sentiments once.
Something we can never fufil now.
It is hurtful, I have to endure.
My heart is aching, beyond my control.
I love you, I shouldn't have.


I try to refrain myself from having a second look at you. But I can't. Like I've said, those mesmerizing eyes of yours is something no one can ever resist. Even without your appearance in front of me, almost everything in my sight triggers all those memories we owned. I detest that. A minute of smile and a minute of frown.

I understood, why adults forbid us to engage ourselves in relationships. Us, at this age, I admit, are still not mature enough to handle relationships and our emotions during and after each obstacle and setback. Adults will try to salvage once their relationship turns sour, but we will usually just give them up once our relationship becomes shaky. That is why, I reckon, relationships at our age rarely would last.


A sudden craze in Listen by Beyonce. This is insane.


I am missing.. I will tell one of you that I'm missing. I once told one of you that I missed. I have yet to tell one of you that I'm missing since. I won't get to tell one of you that I miss.

I missed you. I am missing you. I miss you. I seriously am. You miss her, he misses her. This is killing me brutally.


I have told you everything I wanted to tell you. But I have yet to fufil some of my promises. Despite the countless times we have went out together, we have yet to go on a date you once yearned. Again, it was my foolish decision. I guess, you were the mature one, I wasn't.


To someone out there..

Finally, after umpteen tries of entering blogger, I managed to update this post. But I better hurry, need to catch a wink!


Wednesday:
Well, I was supposed to meet Jonathan, Alfred, Anne, and Timothy for breakfast, but Jonathan and Alfred were caught in a traffic jam, so the remaining three of us just head for central and got some snacks.

Mr Ong stood under the unbearable scorching sun, looking at the pupils walking into the school compound. I was impressed, but we all knew his 'enthusiasm' is short-lived. Let us anticipate..

Indeed, Jonathan and Alfred were late. Many others escaped detention, while actually, Salihah and I wanted to go for detention since Mr Razak held the session for two hours. Imagine the both of us, sitting in the hall motionless, having our eyes staring hard at him, saliva will start leaking from our mouth..Awww! Gross, for the drooling part.

Shayne, demanded me to pay money. Money over some dumb issues. To create some fun, I drew on the shillings. He accepted it anyway.

After school hours, Anne and I rushed to Whitesands' supermarket to get our Valentine's stuff. Pretty fun, I shall say. The time we spent can be on the par as the time I spent with Nabilah selecting bras. We took a cab back to school and Anne went home straight while I decided to stay back in school. Hanging in school till 5 plus always rewards me with some heartbreaking scenes. But I can't refrain myself from not staying in school till then.


Thursday:
I reckon that Physics test was pretty simple. I wish I may pass it, which somehow I doubt I won't. But, Chemistry was tough! Mr Mahathir just had to walk around and around. Inserting a certain amount of pressure, of course. I was pressing my face as near to the paper, hoping I will be oblivious to my surroundings. It won't work, at all. Guys usually drag their feet while walking.

Hung around outside staff room, waiting for Nabilah to complete her EMath re-test. Nicholas was there too, for whatever remedial then re-test. I was driven to boredom, but 3\2's Critical Writing books caught my eyes. I began rampaging the box, sorry for invading you guys' privacies. I found Dennis's book and scribbled some words inside!

Salihah came forth and took her Social Studies test too.

Yet again, another heartbreaking scene I witnessed from my house.


Friday:
Met up with Jonathan, Alfred, Anne and Amanda to purchase John's miniature birthday cake. We took a long time to decide. Jonathan can't stop mocking at my suggestion of buying half a watermelon as a birthday 'cake'. What's wrong with a watermelon, dude?

Everyone should have seen how Jonathan was walking with the cake hooked to his pinkie. So gayish. That, was then something ought to be laughed at! Jonathan lied!

Played Volleyball during PE. My love. Till now, I am still using the old way to serve the ball. Dig(dick), hahaha. What a joke he made. Shayne was comical. For some reasons at the back of my mind, he said no. Then 3\4 also said no, as if they were mimicking Shayne.

Shayne is mercenary, according to Junming, which I agree too. We have to pay him before he is willing to smack the cake onto John's face. Shayne did a bad bad job anyway. He said the cake was too thick to further push it on John's face, he could have just rubbed it against his face luh. Mr Razak knew we had a lighter, like what?

3\6 oftenly make nonsensical jokes, but hilarious too! Haha.

Went to Marina Square. Screw my dad!

Finally, I can get into this thing! After countless tries. See, Nabilah dearest, I didn't abandon my online diary.


Today, I was welcomed by an evil smile from an evil guy. Mr Ong just had to preach, again. So poor us, we just have to pretend our ears are wide open. His preaching gulped our reading period, which in fact, should be something to rejoice about.

English, as usual, bore us to the extreme! Mr Yap didn't turn up today, fortunately! I actually forgot to revise for my Physics test, how absent-minded I am.

Mother Tongue, we went through another chapter, and of course, we have to copy down the words and phrases. She played music and when in the process of switching song, Alfred would ask the teacher why isn't there any music on purpose and repeatedly. So adorable. That teacher also wrongly accused Wilson of turning back to me. Well, he didn't bring his textbook what.

What happened during Chemistry? Just can't stand that girl tugging and whining and whatever that sores my eyes.

Shazreen and her nonsense can seriously make you laugh till you can't see a thing. Better place toothpicks at my eyes lest I become blind.

Zul kind off made the class greeted Mrs Tan in Japanese. That made the class laugh? I don't see why, though I laughed too. He can't stop looking at me asking me what to say. Lol? We can't stop laughing and crapping, Mrs Tan just had to pick Zul, Xuanjie and I out to the board. Luckily, I was the first being called out and that sum was the easiest! Haha.

Literature was swopped to English. Boring! Until we were brought to the library. Those guys, eee-ing all the way after seeing some saggy and hairy stuff. How ironic.

English common test, average? I have no idea. Naturally, I want to pass. Doubtfully better than Alfred. I spent 50 minutes on the paper, should have made full use of the time instead.

John, for whatever reasons, kept pulling my hair. Lol. And my class only had a pathetic number of people interested in the NYAA Silver. So far, the only guys going are Shayne and John. Plus, Shayne was like forced to sign up.


Some days, I crave for a sweet one, some days, a cute one. Other days a cool one, but today, I yearn for the old one.


I know I can get over it.Time will make me strong.Past is nothing but memories.Present is something to cherish.Hang on tight, I will ride against the roughest waves and sail through the calmest ocean.


My testimonials to Salihah:
1 Hello, my sweetest JNS gorgeous. I am feeling pretty empty inside. Those memories kept flashing across my mind. Each time I experience a flashback, I would feel a sudden sting in my chest, and my heart will begin to pound quicker. I am upset, but all these will be over soon, right? I know. I just have to be patient. I can move on, it is just a matter of time. I am self-consoling, but I believe I can get over it. Watch me stand, tall and proud. I love you, Salihah. Thank you for being with me all these while. I appreciate it, absolutely. Guys come and go, but friends will always stay. Be it streets apart or worlds apart. I will prove to him I can get a better guy then he is. I will keep myself strong and going. I won't crawl, I won't walk, I will fly!

2 Gorgeous, it is okay. You can just spill your woes on me, friends are meant to share things together. Even what we are experiencing now or in the past are similar. We still harp on who we once had, and regret only when we have losed them. He told me not to blame myself, but I do. He said it wasn't a foolish mistake, but to me it was. A pity, I am still unable to face the reality and accept the fact. Label me foolish, because I am. Letting a guy so dear to me slipped off my fingers just like that. I overlooked the love he once showered on me, hence that wrong decision I made. I am regretting it a lot. But nothing I do now will make things change for the better. All I can do now is to wait, to wait for myself to open up, to wait for myself to get over it, to wait for myself to forget about him.May us be blessed from further misery, for we've gone through enough pain.


JNS been through a lot of ups and downs. Nothing is predictable and we share the same fate. Our lives are connected; when things don't go smoothly for one, things won't go smoothly for the rest too.


I don't see a glimpse of hope for us to be together again. As much as I want you back, you have already moved on. Fast enough to crush my heart, painful enough to see me bleed. I have proven my theory right; the one that gets hurt in a relationship first will move on earlier. I have substantial evidence to support my theory.


Those raindrops that fell,
those candles we lit.
The memories we had,
were never too vague.

Those roads that crossed,
those stars we admired.
The days we spent,
were never too serious.

I took a step,
that seemed so mild,
but I didn't expect,
it pierced so deep.

A wrong decision,
you reckoned otherwise.
A touch of love,
for the next one.

Hence I realised,
I miss you so.
Now and always,
and even the past.

A foolish mistake,
I've said it thrice.
To make you return,
it seems so nought.

I still want to say,
I miss you so.
Will you come back,
for me, my love?